(For: killing animals)
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I had this dream sometime early this month:
Me and my boyfriend had a box of white kittens. Someone was making us kill them. If we didn’t kill them something bad was going to happen, but I can’t remember what. We took the box of kittens to the roof of a building and my boyfriend pulled out a knife.
He grabbed one of the kittens and laid it down on the cement roof. He pushed the knife down and sliced its head off while the other kittens were crawling around innocent and oblivious. I was so so sad to kill a kitten. He handed the head to me and I wrapped the neck where it had been cut off in a piece of gauze and sat it on the ground so that the neck was holding up the head. Then he picked up the next kitten and continued.
I awoke from this dream feeling mournful and like a terrible person. Why do I dream such terrible things? Why did the blood and the knife and the life disappearing from the kittens feel so real?